im dead tired.


TUESDAY 30TH JANUARY 2007



DINNER @ NEW YORK NEW YORK wif DA GALS!





im counting down to friday lo :)

okay..

i'm supposed to blog about yesterday's ktv cum dinner with some frens..
BUT,

i left my camera's SD card in my school's lappy..
*slaps forehead


well...
so i've got no reason NOT to finish setting my science exam paper by tonight..
okay, i didnt complete it on saturday, despite working on it for SEVENTEEN HOURS STRAIGHT (plus abit of msn here and there la..)
:(

eight more questions to go..
God arh...give me wisdom and STRENGTH..............


ivy's bday dinner tomorrow.
so i guess i'll update by wednesday? keke.


it's monday only :(
.. GANBATTAE peeps.. 4 more days to weekends

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

ARGHHHHH.....


me stuck at home on a SATURDAY setting exam paper :(
i cant believe this..


grrrr...
a total of 45 questions and right now, i still have got 21 more to go :(
i've been working since morning.. my aim is to complete the whole paper by tonight.
wan die allady............


alan saw me on msn and still had the cheek to suan me, saying, "Wah... setting science exam paper arh. i help u think of the question la.. "

"who produce u?"

-_-

THANKS ARH
crazy dude haa...


GRRRRRRR!!!
*pulls hair out

she has done it again

-_-

yes, my rachel.
she came to me during recess again to borrow money -_-
this time, i REFUSED to lend it to her and decided to check with her aunt if she was given any pocket money.

and...
her aunt said she was given FOUR DOLLARS.
-_-



THEN WHERE HAS ALL THE MONEY GONE??!?!???!!?
i glared at her after i put the receiver down.


and from the corner of the class, a squeaky voice mumbled, "orh. she morning buy drinks."
it was one of my 四大天王s who spoke up.

kids who misbehave themselves will jump at any opportunity to get the rest of his friends into trouble one, hahahha
so i've got no problem getting the truth out in no time..haa..

so i swirled around almost immediately, "What?? what did you say she bought?"
the kid, obviously happy with the sudden royal attention he got from me, proudly said, "in the morning, rachel put alot of coins into the vending machine to buy 100-plus."

"ohh, so one dollar gone."

"No.. she buy 2 cans of 100-plus. Then after that she go and buy one green tea.
Altogether, three dollars."

"TWO 100-plus and ONE MORE GREEN TEA?!!!??? AGAIN?????
BUY SO MANY DRINKS FOR WHAT?!!???!?!"


some of my class kids started to add 'oil to the fire', saying things like, "One dollar can buy a burger to eat leh..." and
"Wah, i buy rice with $1.20."
"rachel, u got so much money dunno how to use arh....."
"miss liang, we must always spend our money wisely."


precisely..

but had to stop any more verbal abuse on that poor girl, by that time, was already sulking and all.


haiz..
come monday, i'm gonna make sure she follows my financial-management plan..haa


YEAH.......
it's FRIDAY AGAIN!!!!!!
HURRAY!!!!!!
im uber high, keke..
i love the weekends cos i can take a break from work... even thou weekends may be alittle lonelier now, i'll still be happy, hehe

:)
esther says im so strong, haha..
okay la.. whatever that has happened is already in the past. no point harping over it and feeling really down.. i will only feel upset and exasperated just before the breakup and not when i know everything is over.
yes, i do miss him sometimes, but the hurt isnt so bad. cos i'm best at brainwashing myself, haha
:)

look on the bright side.
take care peeps!


i wanna wannnna go zouk tonight!!!!!!!
*FANG, if u are reading this.. DONT FLY MY AEROPLANE HAR...!!!!!!!

The Cell Theory

How the term 'cell' came about.

"Just like anything else in science, as technology gets better and better, more advancements and discoveries take place.
In 1665, a man by the name of Robert Hooke looked through a microscope to view cork. He first coined the term 'cell' because the cork cells he observed looked like compartments."


Yes,
i started teaching a new chapter, "Cells - The Unit of Life", to my primary 5 science class today.
And i wanted to start by introducing the term, 'cell' to the kids and how the name came about.. so i was all enthusiastic telling them how scientist Hooke first discovered cells, until stifled giggles were heard from the big boys at the back of the class..

then i realised what was wrong.

cos i said,
"The scientist discovered how cells looked like when he was observing a cork..."



For your info,
this is a cork.

and without a picture, with me just rattling off, some boys in the class thought i was referring to the OTHER word (0n their body) with almost the same pronouncation..
-_-
and they started sniggering..


grrr...
so i had to 'act like nothing happened' and continued with the rest of the 'story-telling', of cos with a 'bottle' infront of the word, 'cork' now.

it's monday again..
blue blue blues... haha..

it's only the first month of the year and the workload is over-whelming..
i know i ought to persevere on and accept whatever challenges that come my way, but i'm so so so tired... Arghhhhh...

the amount of workload is killing my passion for teaching.
why cant a teacher's job be as simple as just teaching and moulding young lives?
why so many projects and adminstrative stuff to do one?????


okay..i've finished with my ranting.


keke..
i hadnt enough of retail therapy (aka binge shopping) over the weekend.

bought a new mascara cos my current one is drying up.
the sales person sweared that this WONT SMUDGE..
good!

Mascara MAXI frange (waterproof) in Black from Bourjois

First u apply with the comb-side.. for extension,
and then u coat everything with the brush.. hehe..

it's abit clumpy though, but i like!
cos it volumises and gives the illusion of longer and fuller lashes, YEAH..

yes..like wad beancurd face says, "MAGIC!"
haha.


and these...
LOOK at the amount of hair products i'm using for my hair
-_-

machiam help Lucido do advertisement -_-


u ask, "wad the hell..why so many products??!??!"

yah what.. all for styling.. BUT different purposes.. haaa..

The pink and green tubs are for holding the curls.
Pink is for loose waves, while the green is for bouncy curls..
I prefer to mix the two together since i find the pink one not able to hold my curls well, yet the green one, when used alone makes curls abit stiff..
so when u mix both together, u get soft defined curls, hehe

the small red tub is for creating airy volume and hair grouping on the crown.. so fringe doesnt look flat on top..

lastly, after hair is styled, it's the tall tall spray can's job to keep whatever i've 'arranged in place' to last the whole day...(or at least it promised la.. not sure thou')


hmmmm...
i think hor.. i can only maintain the styling regime to partying weekends when i dont have to rush to go school in the mornings, haha
-_-


weekday working mornings, think stick to the pink and green tubs will do..
keke




im so ecstatic!!
keke..
received a gift from Yasu through msn.


WAHAHAHAHHAAA.... i have my own giggling msn icon!!!
(but hor..how come put up here will move so fast one -_-)

thanks dude!
Perfect gift for ZiLian ME! :p
hehe

im back from Reds..

kelvin did my hair a darker brown tone as he claims light shades would make my already fried ends look dryer and the image just screams 'cao ah-lian'.
keke.. so he did color-retouching from the roots, trimmed more of the sides to create volume on the crown. He also trimmed part of my fringe so it doesnt look too heavy.

the color seems very dark, haha.. and the curls are like 'gone' already, haa.. but at least it's a change.
signifying a new beginning?



was a glooooomy gloooomy day.
i really hate what i'm going through. i just hope tomorrow would be a better day for me.

alot of peeps have asked if i was fine.. yes, i am.. so, dont worry.
i won't wallow in self-pity but at least give me time to heal, to get over it.. i dont think it's wrong to feel upset becos time is the best medicine.
so dont ask me to be happy or what..
i will, in time to come.


at least
for now, everything's clear.

our status had been very very fuzzy....until jas msged me when i was doing my hair this afternoon, saying, "Hey..heard about you and wilson. Dont get too upset k..."
so i asked if she has heard it from wilson himself.. and yes, she did.

okay, so now i know..
i mean, never did he tell me straight that he wants a break up, only hints here and there.. i didnt want to ask also cos he's stressed and confused, and i know he needs time to be alone. so i gave him.
but now,
i've nothing to say, and there's nothing i want to do either.
i'm prepared for the worst and the worst has come and i've handled it well.. at least for now.
dont blame him for i know he has his reasons..

~the end~


the feeling is terrible. u know who u are.
u had made me smile even when things arent going fine my side :)

pls pls dont do this to me ever, it's worse than what i had to go through (a breakup)..
cos i start questioning myself.. why do guys behave in the same way. it's so so scary.. why are matters of the heart so complicated??

when u give ur heart to someone, u're also giving him the power to hurt it...


sigh..
what's wrong with me..

and with my life..

my curls are loosening at such a fast rate, haha..



made an appointment with my stylist to color them a lighter shade later!!
cos the roots look so much darker than the ends..
hope my prin* doesnt make any noise when she sees me on Monday. hehe..


it's weekends again, YEAH!!!
after a hectic week in school, i finally get to rest again :)
take care too, peeps!

=)

my kids are driving me up the wall these few days.
i reckon if i dont tighten my rein, they will very soon become incorrigible. haha..

their PE teacher has already come to me after 2 lessons, shaking her head, saying, "peimin arh..佩服你... ur class hor, really.. the '四大天王' is enough to drive me crazy !!!"

very confidently, i named out each of the '四大天王'..

BINGO.. haaa..



3 boys and 1 girl..
as usual, no need to think, our dear rachel is undeniably one of them, haiz..

she has been borrowing money from her seniors again.. and many of them have complained to me that she doesnt return them the money.. and so i paid them back -_-

talked to her so many times about managing her money wisely.
it's not as if she doesnt get any pocket money. On the contrary, she is given 2 to 5 bucks everyday!!!!
(i remember i only get like 60¢ during my primary school days lor -_-'')
and she can come to me during recess, telling me she doesnt have money for food -_-
when she cant find me, she goes to the bigger children in the school.. Many, seeing her deceivingly cute face and hearing her pitiful plight, they lent her their money to buy some food.
-_-



i needed to get to the root of the problem..so i finally got to talk to (interrogate) her yesterday..


me: why do u keep borrowing money from your friends?

she: i never borrow.. is they give me one..

me: yah rite.. would people give u money freely if u didnt ask? how come i dont see people giving me their money?!

she: i no money to eat

me: your mommy didnt give u pocket money?

she: only got 2 dollars

me: TWO DOLLARS NOT ENOUGH!?!?!?!

she: but until recess i no more liao..

me: what did you buy?!

she: morning, i buy the yakult, milo and green tea already...

me: buy so many drinks for what!?!?

she: i thirsty..

me: and u spent all ur money on drinks?

she: i thirsty..


me: DRINK FROM THE WATER COOLER NEXT TIME!!


anyway, i had to tell my class children not to lend her any money and also to the canteen vendors so that they make sure she spends her cash wisely..
if the need arises, may have to help her plan out how to manage her money..
cant believe im doing what her parents ought to be teaching her, keke

anyway, doesnt matter la.. as long as she's under my care, i would do what i deem necessary.


today she was so stubborn in class again..
simply refused to do any class work and when i went into the class after their art lesson with another teacher, i found her rolling on the floor again -_-

so i casually told my class monitor, "ohh..rachel doesnt wan to behave again, go down and call Mr Ong (OM) up then.."
in no time, the class saw her 'shoot up' almost immediately, rushed to her chair and sat down

-_-



and the next thing,

she gave this to me....



-_-


some kids really need some threatening-_-

someone told me not to bury myself in work. haha..

i'm not burying myself in my work la.. but i'm BURIED by work lor -_-
the large amount of work is over-whelming to the extent that it's almost impossible to cope with.. feel like quiting, haha..
i hope my study leave can be approved, but even so, i can only start studying full-time again next July (in 2008)..

sooooo sooooo long...
hmmmm

my sunday.

has not been a good one..

last sat was the first saturday i didnt go down to see him, so i went down yesterday after my church since i would be in town.. returned his umbrella and also passed him some warm ginseng tea.. that's to cure his fatigue.

it was a very short meeting. and a very heart-wrenching one.
we didnt say much.. he only asked me why i have come despite him telling me not to. i dont understand why. he said i am so silly..
he drank the ginseng tea, returned the vacuum flask and passed me some zouk free-entry cards for this friday.

just looking at him i felt i had so much to tell him.. but i knew i couldnt stay any longer.. because i wouldnt be able to control my tears.

and so i left.
i didnt wan him to see me cry.


he msged me.. telling me not to be sad, to eat more and take care. he said he's not good enough for me and i will be happier off without him.
:(

i didnt reply him.. cos it hurts too much.
i dont wan to hope for anything more too... just need to be alone

i'm very strong, i know it..
i wont move, i wont leave you, i won't budge an inch cos i love you... i wont give up easily and i will stay put.
call me stubborn, call me silly, i dont care. i know my feelings for you and i wont leave.

woke up in the morning to bb's sms.. knew something was amiss when he told me how good a girl i am and how he felt that he had treated me badly.. he's confused and he's sick and tired of himself and his life.. he doesnt know what he wants and he doesnt want to hurt me. He says he's so busy and if i stay with him, i would be very unhappy and the last thing he wants is me to feel sad.

i told him that it's because he's so so busy with work, mentally and physically tired this period of time, that's why he's feeling this way.
i told him i will stick with him no matter what but he asked me not to be so silly and to go find someone better who wont make me upset like he does.
:(


i dont know why..
instead of feeling really upset over it, i felt more than hopeful..
Normally, for me, if someone were to tell me that, i'll go all insecure and believe the other party doesnt love me anymore.. and being the Egoistic me, i would have said, "Fine.. if that's what you want, i will leave and you wont get to see me again."

but i didnt.


perhaps from the past r/s, i've understood some stuff and looked at things very differently now..
i admit i used to want alot of attention and affection from the one i love and i was quite a spoilt brat. guess now i'm old already or what, heh.. maybe dont need all this liao? fairy tales dont exist, remember? :)

we actually met up last night to attend jaslin's bday party together.. i was at meridien, with his mother, waiting for him to come over and close shop.. he came, visibly exhausted and obviously in a damn bad mood.. i guessed he was too too tired and stressed up with work already.. but despite his bad mood, he still greeted me with his usual 'blink' 8), but of cos without the smile la.. but it's still sweet enough for me since i could see he's in a foul mood.
he asked me to sit on a chair at the side and wait while he closed shop.. and as i waited patiently, just looking at him, in my heart i knew i love this man greatly.. i told myself i wan to tide through thick and thin with him.. i dont know if i have the capacity to do it.. whether i can withstand more unassured moments and his busier-so-no-time-to-meet schedule in days to come..
im seriously not sure...
but one thing i'm sure, as long as he doesnt tell me in my face to go away cos he doesnt love me anymore, i will stay put.. as long as i can still feel his feelings for me but it's just the stress and work keeping us apart, i will stay put..
i dont know how long i can last.. but i'm trying my best.
i dont know if things would work out eventually, but i'll do my best..


im hopeful still, cos i know he still loves me.
baby pls dont give up on me.

i'm in school, having my break and munching on an apple he passed me yesterday, hehe..

it's very sweet.. (referring to both the apple and the feeling) haha..
i'm so busy in school and he's so so so busy at work, which makes it hard for us to meet up.. and the only days i'm free (weekends and holidays), he'll be even busier, keke..

went town after work yesterday, wanting to get some presents.. so popped by his shop to pass him packed dinner..
Yes, i saw how busy he was and i was telling myself that i MUST really be very understanding towards him and his work :) thou sometimes i tend to 胡思乱想..bad habit bad habit...
dennis was there, as well as his sister. both couldnt recognise me cos of my permed hair, haha.. got so much difference mehh -_-

after which. went over to compasspoint to have my dinner with siaolang.. met up with beancurd face too for some light snacks since he was around that area.. by that time, i was already very sleepy, so left quite early after that..sorry, haa..


IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!
AND IT'S PAY DAY!!!!!
HURRAYYYYY!!!!!!

sorrie, im uber high, haa...
going for my lesson liao..

enjoy ur weekends, peeps! :p

i'm trying not to fall sick..
having abit of flu now, hopefully my nose clears tomorrow morning :)

missing him so much.
but im refraining myself, cos i know he needs to concentrate at work.

if only..
if only he would tell me, bb i wanna see you..

second week of school..


first day of the week and i had to drag rachel out of the class -_-
she's not disruptive but simply BO CHAP...
i can be there teaching the rest of the class Maths and she can be walking around, playing with her socks, crawling all over the floor and sitting on my chair!
no, she's not autistic, hyperactive or having any learning disabilities.. she's a completely normal child but she's as stubborn as a mule.

i've received many complaints from her subject teachers since i took her in primary one last year, the most ultimate one was this..
The chinese HOD(head of dept) took my class for CME and he was trying to get the class to be seated on the floor so he could read to them a story..
the rest of the kids scurried to the front while our dear rachel was still at her desk colouring her story book.. so he cajoled her to come and join the rest of her classmates and guessed what she said?

"没有看到我在做东西啊?!"


the HOD just stared, dumbfounded, obviously shocked by her reply.
he came to me after class saying that never in his whole teaching career has he seen a girl behaving like this before..

i shrugged my shoulders.. well, my girl has made history then, hahaa..
anyway, many a times she was found eating in the canteen while the whole school is in the hall for morning assembly and i had to personally go down and 'invite' her up to the hall -_-

had spoken to her parents and care-giver, but all they said was, "she always like tat one la..so stubborn, dont bother about her lor.."

HAH.. how not to bother -_-


Anyway, back to what happened today,
the class started working on their math sums and she began rolling on the floor -_-
THAT WAS IT!!
last straw.

i took her math book, pencil case and dragged her by the arm out of the classroom. She refused to budge so i had to literally lug her out, with her sprawling on the floor.... all the way out to the next class.
i had peace for the rest of the math period and she came back after school, acting as if nothing has happened, gave a toothy smile and hugged me.
-_-


i seriously dont know wats wrong with this kid..


11 more months to go with her in my class
:(





Enough of work, haha

went facial after school and i signed up for a new course cos i'm left with 2 facial sessions...
my beautician was telling me that they no longer have the '15 sessions plus free 15' promotion anymore :(

she offered a few packages...
67 bucks per facial, including ampoules and cold massager..

i was contemplating cos i thought 67 bucks per session is rather costly leh.. i'm trying to save money over here.. had been saving abit here and there le..(facial pdts, cosmetics, clothes..)
hmm...

the other package was without the ampoules and each session would cost me $51..

the last was without ampoules and cold massager, each session would be $45.

hmmmm.... 45 bucks is quite sound..
but the only thing i love about facials is the cold massaging :(
without it, then what's the point. hmm



but i've got great news after tat, hehe..
the manager found me familiar and said she could add in the cold massaging as well for me since kelvin once worked in HAACH before, haha..
so i got the 45bucks/session package with cold massaging!!! woo wheet :D
and for signing up over a thousand bucks, i could receive a limited edition watch..

i wasnt really interested in the watch though, but since i was signing up for 20 sessions, might as well add 3 more to make it over the 1000 mark and get the watch? hehe..

it's quite pretty actually..
comes in 2 sizes.

i chose the bigger face one..cos it looks more stylo, hahhaa...even thou it does seem a tad too oversized for my malnutritioned-looking wrist

she was saying, "aey..this one is Chanel's design okay..."

and i was thinking to myself, "ya ya ya.. chanel's design, but made in dunno where lo.."
haha... but still, i dont care where it's manufactured in.. it still looks as good, haa..
and the paper bag looks better, haha..


fang called me after my facial, telling me that she's at Suntec and wants to meet me for dinner..
my face is like pighead after my facial lor.. how to meet?!?!
i decided not to scare that poor gal, so she had to makan on her own, wahahhaha..
sorry la girl, next time k..
and pls dont choose after i've done facial kind hor.. hehe..



P.S..
i received presents over the weekend!! hehe...
a 'VerySexy' make-up pouch from Victoria's Secret from Ilane who came back from the US!!!!!
xiexie!

it's so so pretty!! still got mirror underneth when u unzip it below!! wahhahhaa.... great for zi lian~ing.


and a dog cushion from a beancurd face!!!! he says it's a new year's day present -_-
wahahhaha... it's not very soft but still huggable! thanks dude, haha....





4 more days to weekends.. cant wait liaoooo

second day of school..

having a sore throat and abit of cough.. think i ate too much fried and heaty stuff over the holidays, plus with all the impending stress i forsee.. or am i just allergic to school?
im getting the pre-'hectic-workload' tension already, heh..
*RELAX RELAX........


it's my free period now, just seen my kiddos for the first lesson. They were more settled than yesterday, because it's the first period of the day and most of them are still in dreamland.
After recess, where most of my teaching periods with them would be, they will exhibit their grotesque behaviour to its full glory.
haiz...


God save me.

it's the first day of school.

oh man......
im so so so sleepy..
i was good and slept early at 11pm last night, so i had exactly 6 long hours of rest..
but why am i still yawning away????

*yawn*

:(
took back my previous class and the monsters are still monstrous.. arghhhh!!!!
first day make me wan to skin them alive and wring their necks liaooo..HNG!


there're a thousand and one things to do, but i'm still in holidaying mood :(
and im sleepy!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHH..............

a simple afternoon..


with just
a present, a cake, a cheeky me and a 'suffering from hangover' him...

with this combination,
nothing is as sweet :)


it's his birthday and i was hatching a plan to surprise him at his shop with a bday cake and presents..
but he was nursing a hangover at home cos he was totally made drunk by his buddies last night, keke... so armed with a mango moouse cake from Emicakes, his birthday present, off i took a cab down to his place to carry out 'Plan B' :)
i felt like a thief sneaking around outside his house.. trying to be as hush as possible when removing the cake from the plastic bag, lighting up the candles and all..

my heart was pounding so rapidly i must be crazy.. i thought i felt my hands trembling as i held the cake and called him on the phone..

"bb where are u?"
"at home la..."
"aey.. come out leh.."
and he was like, "come out where?"
so i said, "just come outside la"
and he, "come outside where?"
haha..

and when he opened the door, i crooned (croaked?) a birthday song for him.. one quarter of it, so it is ONE LINE to be exact -_- cos he wanted to blow the candles liao -_-
so fast.. i sing until very 难听 mehh?...
heh..anyway, i made sure he made a wish first before blowing out the candles :)

he was obviously happy.. dont know if he was touched thou, haha.. cos he didnt say, but i suppose the hugs+kisses speak for themselves? hee
anyway, it was so sweet 8)
heh


Happy birthday baby :p

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS!!!!

started the new year well and everything's back to normal.. and i'm back to my usual cheery self liao, wahahhaa.... so happie :D
hee.. finally managed to iron things out between us and i'm really really relieved i didnt just 'leave it to fate'... but like what kiyomi said, ' 幸福是掌握在自己的手里.. if you really love him, u should try salvage the situation"...
thanks gal, im glad i heeded your advice and talked things out with him. managed to reach some sort of a compromise and now, im just praying hard things would work out fine eventually.


On NewYear's eve, met up some friends whom i've not seen for a long time, 17 of us altogether(?) and we went down to MOS for countdown, keke..
everywhere was so packed!!! we left quite early and some of us went Geylang for frog leg supper!!! slurp!!!
hee..

it's time to post the photos, haha.. cos im too lazy to write liao, heh..