this is abit late,
but still..


a super cute baby to chase away ur monday blues! :)

Yesterday was jayen's off-day and i self-declared mine off too, hehe

usually i try my best to reshuffle my work till it coincides with his =)

finally we've got the chance to walk around orchard, catch a movie and have a date! =)
too bad i had to go back school in the evening for my project, but still, i was happy enough to be able to spend one whole afternoon with him.

=)

we went Shaw for his fitting first..

wahahhaa...candid but i think he looks good in a suit!!! :D

hehe.. he has got a suit tailored because WE

ARE


GETTING



married!
8)
wahahahhaa....

kidding lah.. it's for his work. heh

after that, we went Ion and i bought a bag that i really really like!
i was looking for a black soft leather bag with gold details, and it just found me!
=)

tah-dahhh~
can see i was really happy, haha

i love my new bag!
took a shot together =)



our favourite Each-a-Cup BubbleTea@ Lido!

we caught the 3.45pm movie.. Final Destination.
okay lar, i wasnt as grossed out as the previous few 'final destinations'.
not too scary, hehe..
i still remember watching the really gross one where 2 bimbos got burnt to death in the self-suntanning machines, it was totally horrible!

after that, baby sent me to school for my project meeting and that's how i spent my Friday =)
OOOh, before i forgot, aunt gave me a pretty lippie for my birthday!!

it smells very nice, hehe.. i wan to eat it

YAY

i finished my essay!! WOO HOOOT!!!

i used 2 nights to finish a thousand words each, hehe..
and i'm quite happy with it. It's the first essay i used another style to write. i hope i do well =)

For now, left with the group project to be done tomorrow night with my group mates.
suddenly i have so much time in my hands i dont know what to do now.
tats why im blogging :) heee

Items from zen's spree site! :)
remember this pink furry overalls? haha..it came quite fast!

there were more, but i didn't have time to take photos..

wearing baby's specs i ordered from the spree as well, hehe
(photo taken before hair was colored. tat explains the yellowish ends, haha)

zen gave me so many free masks! i love all of them! Thank you babe!!


lastly, my brother gave me a present for my birthday

wahahahaa.... HSBC GV prepaid card!!! ten movies!!
thank you!!

i cant believe it.
i woke up at 6.30am this morning for work. Work ended 9.30pm today.
and now, it's 2am. i'm still not asleep and working on my essay which will be due on Thursday :(

this week's schedule is totally crazy.
sometimes i wonder whether the school knows that their PART-TIME students are actually FULL-TIME working adults.....

my classmates are all still awake trying to type their essays......

Deadlines
thursday: 2000 word Individual essay
friday: Test / 500-1000 word Individual Assignment
monday: 4000 word Group project

(deadlines.. can really make us die!)

zZZZzzzZ

Yesterday i bought the Liese Bubble Hair colour dye from Watson, but i did not use my Watson card. I was waiting to use it on the Meiji Collagen which cost 99 for two, and because it's my birthday month, first time usage would let me accumulate 5X points! *calculate calculate* it will be 99 points!
woahhhhahaa!!! but the collagen is out of stock :( so i have to wait....

i was having a hard time contemplating between Beige and Ash, and finally settled for my O'time favourite, Ash =)


the previously dyed Ash colour from my bleached ends are running off, leaving brownish, yellowish fried ends.. and my black roots are growing to almost 3 inches on top of my head.. so it's a black crown with yellow ends. Not a pretty sight.

at least, this helps to even out the colour of my tresses =)

the japanese are so innovative.
they came out with this revolutionary BUBBLE hair colouring dye.. hehe

the first few steps are the same as the other hair dyes.. mixing the developer with the dye, and shake lightly.
but by squeezing the mixture through the pink foamer cap, foam comes out instead!!

start from the top of your head and work towards the ends..

there are specific instructions inside to tell us exactly what steps to take first, but i just rubbed the foam into my entire head, hehe.. cos i have very little hair on my head, so it's quite a breeze...

and the foam doesnt really run =) or stain ur clothings
it's like shampooing the dye into you hair! Cool!
i think those shampoo girls can do this easily! =)

after waiting 20-30 minutes, wash off..
it was very hard to wash my hair afterwards cos everything stuck together in a tangled mess!!! it's my hair, not the dye.. cos i didnt follow instructions so everything was tangled, secondly, my hair is already dried out terribly..

after using shampoo and conditioner, hair was good and nice! hehe..
no more black roots, no more yellowish ends! YAY =)

too bad no photo, haha..forgot to take.

anyway,
look what i've got here!

i got all these from the 1-dollar toy machine near my house. They are pretty clips, mirror keychains and hair bands!!! All Disney characters! sorry ar, me abit no childhood, tat's why deprived until now, heh...

tinkerbell

Dumbo

and Alice in Wonderland!!!
Yue's wedding theme! wahahahaa... can try get all of them out and yue can give to the kids tat day, hehe

anyway, i tied my hair with the alice-in-wonderland hairband i got from the machine last week =)


see? cute right, haha!
i wan the Marie Aristocats hairbands so badly!

i am crying
i have enough from my mom.

sometimes i wonder why she wants to go against me all the time?

am i really a pain in her ass, that she always, always need to pick on me all the time?

so what if i'm no longer the nerd in her eyes?
so what if i've learnt how to make-up?
so what if i've learnt to dress alittle better and learn how to groom myself as a lady?
does she have a problem with that?

i am already 28! twenty eight for goodness sake!
why does she always have to make nasty comments about me?

and i'm NOT supposed to answer back cos she will say i'm being defiant!
it's not the first time, and it irks and saddens me!
so i try to avoid her. so that she doesnt have the chance to pick on me

last week, she said i was ugly.
Ugly! has any of your mothers told u u were ugly??
mine did. ALWAYS.
just because i wore shorts to a family dinner.
it was a kopitiam! wear shorts to kopitiam is too much? and its not as if i'm wearing hot pants. it it was a decent pair of shorts that end at a third of my thigh, not my crotch!
she said that because she didnt want my relatives to think she did a bad job at upbringing!
it's not that i'm making things up.. she said it herself once, "you dont throw my face by wearing so short."
SO, i throw your face.
but the thing is, i'm already very very decent in my dressing. maybe sometimes my skirts are abit shorter, but i dont dress skimpily!! cos if i do, even jayen would stop me cos he's such a conservative bf!

my mom is forever picking on me on my dressing.
These are what she forbids me to wear:
sleeveless,
shorts,
jeans that drop to my hips,
mini-skirts,
low-cut.

she picks on me EVERY SINGLE time we happen to go out together. so i try not to wear those clothings infront of her.

this evening during dinner,
she said it again.
she said, "dont put those indecent photos up your facebook."

HELLO!?
indecent?! what does she mean? you mean i pose naked and post my photos up on facebook for all my friends to see?
and that was becos my dad added me on facebook, and i think my mom saw the photos i uploaded. my dad has nothing to do with this, i'm very sure because he is always supportive of me, and he understands his children has their lives and wishes.
maybe MY MOM was talking about the photo of me wearing a tube top -_- i dont know, and I DO NOT CARE.

i'm trying to get abit of my own life online cos she's controlling too much of my personal life here.
so i said, "so, you even wan to control what i do online now..."
and even so, my photos ARE NOT INDECENT! my friends can vouch for me.
i feel so wrongfully accused!
and it comes from my mom! my own mother!

anyway, indecent is not the only word that she used to describe me.
shameless, she said before. 7 years ago. when i learnt how to dress up alittle.
i was very very hurt.
sometimes the hurt stabs me deep. it makes me cry.


i dont think anyone can understand how i feel.
becos they have mothers to love them
even if they dont, they wont have their mothers hate them

:(

20 August 2009
my birthday.
my very very old birthday, haha..

but a birthday is always special.
i woke up feeling very happy, with the "it's your day!" kind of feeling, haha
and since it's once a year, u dont always get to feel like tat, heh

=)
but my day was still packed with work and night class in the evening.
damn sad right, but the feeling of being special on this day brightens up my whole 24 hours of it

in the morning, my handphone started beeping with bday messages and well wishes from my friends! it's really sweet!! i love u all!
yue even called all the way from US to sing me a birthday song! i was so touched i wanted to cry! thanks babe! *HUGS*

in the evening when we knocked off, jayen called to ask what time we could meet, but i didnt want to miss school, so i told him 10pm. While waiting for me, he caught a movie at iluma. After break-time, i convinced myself that i was going to skip the second part of the lecture.
i should be out happily celebrating my birthday instead of sitting through the most boring Organisational Theory lecture!!

even my classmate asked me, "aey... it's ur bday man, why are u even here?!!"

anyway,
i took a cab down to iluma to meet jayen. He wished me a happy bday, gave me a TOOTHBRUSH HOLDER and said that was my birthday present already.

-__-
he was smirking at my disappointed expression, but in my heart i was thinking, "what a bad actor!" cos he was smiling like there was something up his sleeves. And he always use this trick one.

anyway, we were walking around to find somewhere to have our dinner when we walked into this comic shop. jayen went to the cashier and exchanged some eye contact with the cashier, expecting her to do something. i was abit puzzled but i knew immediately that they were hiding something from me. BUT the cashier was even MORE puzzled than me! she was like,
"what.......??" before she eventually realised what she needed to do -_- !!

and she pulled one huge Carebear from behind her seat and passed it to me.
:D
jayen has bought the yellow Funshine bear with a silver nose for me!!!
it was so huge! hahaa.. together with a rose and a birthday card =)
i took a photo with it

actually this carebear was jayen's favourite. He liked it alot but he bought it for my birthday, haha! but it's good cos it reminds me of him and i can hug him to sleep every night =)
it's very cuddly and i love it!

i lugged the bear everywhere we went that night =)
and when we decided to have our dinner at some cafe, jayen jokingly asked if 'pets' were allowed! LOL
the waitress was very cute, she pulled an additional chair over to our table for the bear to sit, haha


after dinner, we strolled along the streets and stopped by The Secret Garden.
Ta-baoed a slice of blueberry cheesecake and it began to rain!
we were so lucky to find 2 sheltered benches at some back alley and we sat there to cut the cake.
actually no cake-cutting cos there was only one slice of it, haha.. but jayen lit a small candle and sang me a birthday song, hehe


the cheesecake was really really yummy!!!!

the rain got bigger and the rainwater was splattering onto us, bear was getting wet! so the '3' of us cuddled closer together, eating the cake. it was very sweet =)

jayen stuck the lighted candle in between the table =)

can see nothing except the flame! haha


God really put us at the right place at the right time! cos by the time we finished the cake (actually i ate most/all of it!), the rain stopped, haha

=)

yeah
Tat's how i spent my special day =)
Thank you baby for everything!


and all of u for ur well-wishes! i cant thank you all enough for making it more special than ever!

one day after using Dr Wu's products, i can say i'm liking it still.
BUT!!!
i'm keeping my fingers crossed.

cos every time i said something good too early, it will eventually prove me wrong!
Ever found urself saying something like, "wah.. recently like never sick like tat. i seem so healthy!"
and the next day, u fall ill -__-
It ALWAYS happen to me!
me and my big mouth, so unlucky one! so, now i always try not to make any comments too early.

anyway, this reminds me of something...
that one friday evening in class, my project and mates were supposed to discuss our tutorial questions.
Usually our lecturer would walk around and choose a few groups to share what our answers were. And for the past few lectures, our group were never called upon...
so instead of doing our tutorial, we were excitedly talking about our outing to zouk after that. heh..
Halfway, i asked my group members, "we never discuss leh! if Pat (lecturer) comes over and ask us to share, how?!"
And my group members waved away my concern, "aiyah, she never come one lar.. for so many lectures she always missed us out."

i told them, "but what i say always come true eh... know what is 乌鸦嘴?"
they laughed and didn't bother. And we continued our gossip and clubbing talk
UNTIL, to our horror, Pat came right over and said,
"Come, let's have this group to start the ball rolling!"

All eyes on us.
and u could imagine.. the 6 of us with our heads hung low, i could hear my group mate muttering "peiminnnnn........乌鸦嘴......" under his breath.
haha! told u liao

anyway, it wasnt very nice cos Pat was obviously upset that we couldnt give her any constructive answers. we're all adults liao, still behaving like kids not paying attention in class

sigh,
there were more than one instances something like tat happened, and even the boyfriend is very scared i would say the wrong thing, cos almost everything i said happens!
there was once he was so amazed at my this 'premonition' shit that he requested, "Baby, can you please say i TIO the toto?"
-__-!

If i really can predict the future hor, i wont even be slogging my life out now liao -_-

why am i even talking about this now? where was i?
Oh, Dr Wu's products...

i did not buy the whole range of acnecur products as i reckon unless i have a very bad case of acne would i buy all the products from the Acnecur range. It's more of prevention because my skin is very prone to outbreaks, but if i use all the products from there, it might be too harsh and dry out my skin. so I bought the soothing spray from the Basic Care range as i needed its calming and anti-inflammatory properties.
i like the spray =) it smells like my grandma's chrysanthemum tea, hehe
but more importantly, skin feels more hydrated.

i think the "not applying foundation or powder" works best. at least, if i can tide through the 'ghostly no make-up to let scars lighten stage', then i wont need my concealer anymore, and then less clogged pores! YAY


by the way,
i cut my fringe for 7 dollars today

it's a bit weird cos i can neither put here not there, but heck, hair will grow

yes, no foundation on my face
=)

Nowadays, i try to keep a tighter rein on my purse strings

less online shopping,
less entertainment (jayen is very busy with work, so it's a good chance for me to stay home/library to work on my assignments)
less binge spending on unnecessary stuff

i even try to cut cost by buying cheaper products.

and i realise, some stuff u really cannot scrimp too much on.
Stuff like health products or facial products.
some stuff are expensive because of the advertising cost.
but some stuff are expensive REALLY because of its quality. hmmm

as i'm quite an experimenter when it comes to beauty products, i do not mind trying new products, hoping to find one that suits me. But i find that when i buy off-the-shelf facial products, they do not seem to be as effective as the more expensive ones.
and i am very sure it's not my 心理作用.

my skin is not exactly perfect.
In fact, i find it quite problematic. I've passed the Horrible Acne stage, but the clogged pores are still irritating me alot. Maybe it's because i put on make-up regularly, but i'm already minimising the gunk i put on my face.
why other girls put on make up also no problem! Unfair!!
anyway, life is already not fair, haha
i know the only way to stop those pimply nonsense is to let my skin breathe by not applying any make-up, but it's abit impossible cos there're scars i need to conceal. i cant go out looking like a ghost.
For me, i can only go out naked face IF my skin is flawless. When i say flawless, i mean PERFECT. no spots at all.

which is quite impossible to achieve. i'm not blessed with good skin :(

but right now, i wanna do an 'overhaul' to my face, haha
not plastic surgery, i dont have the money to do it! i'm resolving to eat as much fruits daily, no junk food, and put on as little make up as possible. I'm skipping my liquid foundation now, and the 2-way cake is banned totally.
Loose powder is said not to clog pores, but still, i'm not taking any chances :( cos i realise my pores clog even with moisturising lotion or BB cream. i wonder why. No enlarged pores, thankfully, but somehow, tinnier pores CLOG like mad!!

make up= clogged pores= whiteheads = me wanting to squeeze them out= SCARS!!!!! THAT DON'T HEAL QUICKLY COS I'M AGING!!!!!!
it's a vicious cycle!!!
i cant be treating acne, scars, and WRINKLES altogether right?!!

i know jayen is going to nag at me to see me talking like tat.
but seriously, i'm so fearful. Last night, i even dreamt someone (i cant remember who) screaming into my face, "why ur face SO JIALAT?!!!"
dreams are said to tip us off on our inner fears, remember? :(

=(

my classmate recommended SKII, but they're so god-damn expensive i heard.
but IF my skin is gonna respond positively to it, i wont mind spending that kind of money...

anyway,
for now, i'll just try POORER ways to save my skin.
Dr Wu's facial products

i bought the cleanser for acne-prone skin and the spray for normal/sensitive skin.
i need the cleanser to CLEAR out my pores, and the chamomile to soothe my ultra-sensitive skin.
i still remember my conversation with my beautician years back...

beautician (using some probe to anaylse my skin): hmmm, ur skin ....
me: i know. very sensitive right?
beautician: no.. is super, ultra, extremely sensitive!

:( yah, very encouraging
but beauticians are known to be very exaggerating so u will be scared and buy MORE products, no?

hope some miracle happens. i'm praying very hard. (For many years already)

anyway,
i applied for watsons card, hehe!

can get cash rebates! why not!

I'm finally done with another Research report, YAY!!!!
i'm super happy for now, heee..

sadly, there are 3 more major projects waiting for me, but Heck, enjoy first!
i wanna go and nap already, hehe

pudding's bedding has started to smell after a week, so i had to buy him new one!
i didn't like the temporary pellet-form i bought a few weeks ago because the pellets were easily stuck onto the base of the cage and cleaning up was tedious :( and the smell was quite horrid. Poor pudding

i better stick back to this afterall...

clean and dry! Odour-free!

of cos going into a pet shop means spending more money to pamper the pudding...
luckily i'm quite broke, so i didnt end up spending too much.
I bought hamster-biscuits for him!

Look like mini pizza! but too bad they don't smell like one. Think is carrot or what -__-
Pudding didnt like it cos it didnt finish it. But he looks damn cute holding onto the pizza with his two hands and biting into it, haha! Too bad no photos cos he's always moving very fast, i couldnt capture any great moments, haiz...

And i bought him a NEW WOODEN HOUSE! wahahaa...

it's super cute and the roof can be detached, hehe.. decided to remove his good'O'rocket because it's already out of shape as pudding loves gnawing on the plastic.

pudding checking out his new house...

can u spot his tiny foot? wahahahaa....


again, no photos of his face cos he's moving around too quickly and it's 1.30am in the morning cos i spent almost half an hour cajoling him out of the cage so i could wash his cage! stubborn pudding!

Photo blog entry of my Saturday

It was my first weekend without him :( so i've a day's programme planned out for myself =)
My initial plan was to go to the salon, spend the whole afternoon at the library to do research, then home by dinner to rot till night.

i reckoned my day would be an oh-so-boring one, so i wanted to cheer myself up by taking photos of my day's events, haha (abit contradicting i know. boring day yet i still wan to take photos of it -_-)

make-up

falsies :D

i tied my hair up alittle different today. Instead of pulling all into a pony-tail, which would be rather short, i tied only the upper part of it.. Photo of my hair later ;)

left home around 12.35pm to go to the salon :)

muahahaa~

After my appointment at the salon.

see?? :D the lower part of my hair looks like it's tied up too but it's not! so my pony-tail looks so long, wahahha... Illusion illusion!! if u look carefully, the ponytail actually ends near the shoulder, heh :D
i messaged esther if she wanna meet up for dinner later and i was so glad she was free!! she even suggested shopping and i immediately jumped at the idea! wahahaa...
she can only meet me at 4.30pm, so i went to the library first.

As planned :)
Reached Bugis and walked over to NLB

it was so crowded but i managed to find a SINGLE SEAT :D on the 9th floor of reference section, wahaha


and by

, one tutorial assignment is done!
fast and good! YAYness~

Left NLB, took the train back to orchard and met esther @ FarEast
Tried on a cute frock

but it's too short for my height :(
i look oversized in it, haha
Took a couple of photos with dear esther! Missed her so much!


hehe

we didnt really buy anything except for a small ribbon clip i bought for myself and her, a pair of earrings and a frilly skirt :)

one more i tried

not nice :( so i gave it a miss

Famished!
we walked over to Ion but it was freaking crowded!! Snaking queues to all restaurants so we decided to walk over Heeren.
Luckily, we spotted SWENSENS at Orchard mrt! wahaha..most importantly, no need to queue, no need to wait! yay! Good for the stomach, good for our aching feet =)
my fave grilled fish sambal!

esther's fave teriyaki chicken pasta!

teeheehee...
we should do this more often!

walked back to FarEast after dinner to get esther's car and jayen called at 10pm after his work.
He said he wanna come meet me and i was elated! wahahaha... it was a sweet surprise. i missed him so much already
Parted with esther before meeting him

we were at Balestier Shaw cos there was a 1030pm show for "Where got Ghost?"
too bad it was full house and every other timing everywhere else was too late. No baby, u must be home early for a good night's rest cos sunday and monday will be busier days for u.

Bought Herbal drink!
LuoHanGuo for me and Honey for him =)


Last photo of my new ribbon clip before bedtime

it's actually very tiny
haha,
tat's all for my saturday! :D